Update....Counting down the days!

Thanks for song picks, it is cool to get to hear some good stuff I haven't heard before. I am looking for stuff that I can use in my aerobics classes too so if you find any fun songs feel free. So okay, I have just finished 9 grad hours in a matter of 3 weeks, I feel like I am going to fall over! But alas, done! and so I am trying to get all my stress out before class starts tomorrow. So I went to the beach and actually got a sunburn and then went to watch a movie with my roommate. So, as life is getting stressful remember to have fun, treat yourself good!

Okay, that was just a little update as I don't want to be all deep all the time! Counting down the days to:

Autumn's Arrival to Orlando - Feb. 17 o 18th?
Africa Orphanage trip - March 9th
Baja Mexico for Laurie's Wedding - April 29th
Grand Canyon Women's Wilderness LT - July 9th

I am SSSSSOOOOOO excited about life lately! Dream big!

Music...

What would you recommend...what are the songs that you LOVE right now or think I have to listen to! Give me your favorite songs.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUTUMN

When your best friend is overseas and it is her birthday nothing seems to satisfy....so please know I love you and I hope you have a wonderful bday...and I didn't mail your present until yesterday...sorry!

I love you!

If I don't, the rocks are gonna cry out!

So, me, yes, I should be studying Hebrew, which is what I have been doing for roughly 7-10 hours a day.....and though I should be studying more... I am updating my blog. You know that verse that says if you don't praise God, the rocks with cry out and praise Him. (and I am in seminary! what kind of translation is that!)

So....follow me, I take a break and meet a classmate for lunch, on my way out I get a phone call from a guy saying he found an envelope with checks made out to me in the parking lot and he wanted to return them....praise God! so I meet him at a gas station and we exchange "the goods" and the he says, by the way, I wanted to give you some money too for that trip! I am like what the heck, this guy doesn't even know me...but he writes out a check, tells me to be safe and he is on his way!

I walk back to my car. stunned. and I can feel God look down at me, just shaking His head, because once again He has blown me away.


Back to Hebrew....

Aren't we a cute family?...Kinsey's wedding!

Dancin'....I love to live!

Okay, it started with getting up to teach a 5:30am spin class at the YMCA....on my way home, it is still dark and I find myself longing for time with the Lord. As I head back to Barb and Anne's I crawl under there Christmas tree (yes, it is still up!) with my Bible and journal and I pray the dawn won't break, nor the silence be disrupted...the time feels so precious. He is there with me, instantly He calls me intimately, me, Israel, He asks to trust Him. I feel like God has called me to a life that He leads, yet I have definitely struggled, wrestled with Him to control it myself, it just feels safer. It's not safer...no, it is actually overwhelming. So again, He asks would you let Me lead? and again I relinquish and say but....will you be faithful, can you prove yourself to me?

and He does. today, I found out my trip to Africa is completely covered, I am going to Africa to touch little orphans and my heart quickens at the thought, the thought of my dreams coming true in front of my eyes. And when I got the call, I began to weep and He whispered...thank you for letting me, this is just the beginning, don't compare, don't control, I will blow you away with what I have in store for you.

so.....there is much fear in letting go, but now the cost is too high to not relinquish, I am more intrigued in what He has in the future for me than what I could ever dream up.

FLORIDA...is it a relapse?

Florida. Home. Hmmmm.......I come home and submerge myself with people: April, The Standingers, Beth, and Toni...I wake up early the next morning ready for school, or looking forward to school so that I don't have to feel what I am feeling maybe because I don't know what I am feeling. So now I am a week into school, I actually see my first client today. It has been a good week, a long week. I have seen God show up alot....I have received support for my first deadline for the Africa trip (which is totally God). Getting back into the swing of things always takes time....and in the midst of that I see God asking me to give up more control to Him. Do I trust Him with everything, with trusting Him where He has put me, with the future, with my calling, with all the things I thought I knew in the past but now am not sure of. I am asking God to help me to be content with all of it, all I don't know and don't see.

I fear my struggle with God sounds boxed.

My friend Tim has this on his online journal and I like it, so......

Current music: Breathe (2am) Anna Nalick
Current mood: growing, unclear of the future, still peaceful

A New Year

Just a quick update, I spent my Christmas in Louisiana and Texas - it was incredible! I have only been home for less than 24 hours and smiled a hundred times telling the stories of being home! I love my family, my friends, and Louisiana and Texas are home to me in many ways! Anyway, after delayed planes, New Orleans holidays, turkish delight with family, poker with friends, fun times with highschool friends, going on dates, new memories with college friends, New Year's parties, and the wedding of my dear precious cousin Kinsey..I returned to Orlando and I'm sitting in a classroom smiling, thinking of the richness of my life! Thank you for being in my life!

Happy New Years!