Should I Stay or Should I Go....

I am not sure when I became a grown up....I am sitting here crunching numbers, trying to figure out if house is a good investment, if a masters is a good investment, or if any of it is worth it considering the stress I am feeling. I found a house today, two houses in fact, and I feel torn between which is the better option. Like most of my decisions, I ask for advice from a multitude of sources only to find out that in the end it is me alone who has to live with my decision. Commitment paralyzes me.....why am I so afraid? I remember being fearless once, I remember having no cares, I remember the world being mine to conquer....

So fear not, I have decided to jump. Jump into the paralyzing fear of commitment. Jesus asked Philip once how to feed hundreds, simply to stretch Philip's faith....for Jesus already knew the answer. I am trusting that Jesus knows the answer to how my life will be provided for.

Night Shark Fishing Birthday

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About 20 of us celebrated my birthday night shark fishing off Cape Canaveral - we caught mostly Atlantic white shark though someone got a hammerhead but had to throw it back! I only caught a "charity" shark, for the record I had to sharks break my line, but then one guy let me reel his in! We took about 12 sharks home with us and plan to have a grill out soon! Note: furthest visiting friend, was my friend Zach who I like to think flew in from Qatar just to come celebrate!

I had a smaller party with a few friends which was really special to have them love on me....and tons of people called on my birthday and sent packages. I was journaling later last night, thinking through the last 25 years. I feel completely blessed at the life I have been given, my friends, family, and experiences bring me to tears of awe at how God has given me more than I could ever ask for. I am well-loved and this may be the greatest gift I have experienced in my entire life.